Everything is ruined forever

Purple Elephants. Not the best way to start thinking. But then what is. It's like conversations with people you kinda know. The silence is too awkward. But the smalltalk is to small, you can hardly ask a fellow employee what they do for a living. But if you don't know them what do you talk about? Some of it just seems so ritualistic, so monotonous and insincere. When asked "how are you?" I always worry about boundarys. I mean saying "good" is too vague and standard for me. It's almost a default answer it doesn't mean anything. But then describing in detail the trauma that is my life seems to be a very overpowering way to make a 1st impression, or even a 2nd or 3rd for that matter. But why ask how I am, if you don't want an honest answer? Maybe answering honestly is the right thing to do. Over powering as it may be. Next time someone asks you a default question, consider your answer.